The job search isn't going too well. Josh heard back from several companies, but they weren't offering him the pay and benefits he'd like. He makes pretty good money here (with some awesome benefits) in San Diego and they're offering him jobs for $12 and $15 per hour with little to no benefits. That's a huge pay cut and I can understand why he doesn't want to do it.... Even if it all balances out in the end. Less pay, less cost of living and less rent. We'd be almost as well off as we are here. However, we're moving to Saint Louis in hopes of being be one step up from where we are here. We don't want to be stuck in a little apartment forever.

It's looking more and more like we'll be staying here in SD for the time being and saving every penny we have. At least until Josh gets a good job offer. He's applied to and contacted (via me) almost 200 different companies in Saint Louis County. So we're still crossing our fingers that he hears back from a good one.

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In other news, I heard from the Ex yesterday. I guess we screwed up our 2008 taxes and we're being audited. :( He said we owe them quite a chunk of change. I'm worried that since Josh and I haven't received our return yet that they're going to take the money straight out of there. (Darn you EX... and doing your taxes in mid January! He already got his back...) We'll still have money left over, but it would definitely affect our plans to move. Less money back on the return = more money we are going to have to save up... If we have to stay here for a bit longer I'm gonna want to move out of this apartment which probably means having to sign another lease. We'd stay where we're at, but I'm really not liking this apartment any more. There's so much awful going on here that I just don't have the energy to list it all. (Just to name a few: Leaky fixtures that they don't seem to know how to fix. Neighbors that party and smoke RIGHT outside our door. Dog poop every where you look - and step! Never any hot water - We take luke warm showers. Washing machines that only do half loads -Sick of paying $60+/month to do our laundry!) The only real upsides to living where we are is that it's only a 5-10 minute drive to work for Josh AND we have central heat and air.

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I'm still on my mini blogging break. I just felt like updating. Not sure if I'll ever get back into blogging as much as I was. It was taking up a lot of my time and I'd much rather be spending that time with my kids and Josh. :)

*By the way, weight loss is going pretty well!! Lost about 6lbs so far!*

Kind of.

I think I'll be taking a little mini-blogging break for awhile. I'm sure I'll be back, but for now almost all of my free time is being spent preparing for our move to Saint Louis.

Right now Josh and I are sending out his resume to HVAC companies in the area. So far we're not having much luck... As soon as he can land a good job then we're outta here! We were approved for the townhouse that we applied for as long as he can prove that he has a job set up out there prior to moving.

I'm thinking that the actual move itself will be taking place in about March or April. Wish us luck! I have so much to do before we leave San Diego!

For as long as I can remember I've only ever had one really close friend at a time. I've never been one to have a bunch of friends that I hang out with. I think the biggest group I ever hung out with was when I was in high school. Even then I was only close to one or two of them at a time. I can even name each one of my best friends from kindergarten on. Stephanie (kindergarten), Desiree (1st), Natsha and Connie (2nd), Amy (3rd and 4th), Melissa (5th), Anisa (6th and 7th), Teresa (8th, 9th), Alyssa and Jessica (10th, 11th), Melissa, Michelle, Kelly, Cynthia, (11th and 12th).... I stayed good friends with Melissa right after high school. Soon after her and I stopped talking I met Lizz.... We've been best friends ever since. We've been there for each other through pregnancies, our husband's deployments, my first marriage, our kid's firsts, my divorce and me getting remarried.

....Lizz and her family just moved back to Missouri in November....


Of course I do have Josh. He really is my best friend and I love spending time with him. He's a man though. I can't talk to him about stuff without him trying to fix things... I don't want things to be fixed, I just want to talk. I usually have to explain that to him if I've had a difficult day and I just want him to listen. He doesn't mind... But I miss having that girlfriend there to talk to! Ugh.. then there's shopping. Josh likes tolerates shopping with me. He likes to get in and get out. I like to look around. Even if I know that I'm not gonna buy anything else I still like to look.

I do still have a few friends around. I grew up here after all and I do know people... but I'm not close to any of them. We'll talk once and while. Hang out every now and then. It's just not the same as having that one best friend who you know you can tell anything to and she'll probably have a similar story of her own... then you can both sit there and laugh about it til you cry.

Makes me wish we were in Missouri already so her, I and the kids can all hang out again. I'm missing out on so much already! Her youngest is already talking. I'm sure her oldest is doing all kinds of new stuff too. I know Camron misses his best friend too.

I still have nearly a whole year before we'll be able to move out there. I hate to be such a complainer, but I'm lonely here without my BFF....